Yay Me!!

I am so proud of myself. I turned down a cupcake!! I didn't want to, but I know in order to stay on track I have to not indulge in my guilty pleasures....cupcakes, cakes and cookies.

I hope you guys have a good day. I have a lot going on right now, but definitely wanted to check in with ya.

Edited to say: Oh and I have had already today 8 glasses (64 oz.) of water. Another Yay Me!!

Back to Basics day 2

I made a pact with myself that I would do better about posting. I think I will try to do one post a week. I love this forum because when I do post I stay somewhat on track when I don't....well you know. The only other thing is finding balance because when I start reading and posting I'm on here all day and posting multiple times a day.

Anyway, I started my food journal back up and took in 1780 calories and 92 oz of water or 11.5 glasses.

Happy Friday!!!

EatSmart & weigh in with their scales!!

Good Day All (in the best British accent I can muster)!!

Kenlie over at All the Weigh is giving away a FABU prize check it out below!!

Minus the extra pair of feet of course.

Your weigh in is only as good as the scale (and of course your efforts) you step on. So head on over to Kenlie's spot and check her out.

Happy Friday and Good Luck!!

A little pain and Pouch Test?

Another quick post.

I haven't started on my assignments yet, but I will get to them. At least I read the dang thang, along with some blogs.

Ok so lately I have been having a sort of nagging pain that comes and goes around my port site. Not sure what it is, but it happens at night mostly. When I lay on my stomach it starts, so I flip on my side or on my back and it stays. It's not excruciating pain, but pain nonetheless. I'm wondering should I go to my doctor and demand a flouro test. I so hate dealing with him. I am going to call and talk to his nurses whom I love. Any thoughts?

That brings me to this question. Do I need to do a pouch test? Does that have anything to do with the port pain? BTW, what the heck is a pouch test? I'm going to scourer the blogs to find out.

Hey out there!! Back to Basics!!


Hey everybody!!

1st off Thanks to Stephanie for checking on me! I have been grinding hard with this school work. Quickly because I got two assignments and a project due I will rely on bullets to catch you up. Hopefully I won't be to long.

• As mentioned before I have been swamped with school and work. My life consists of work, school, eat and school....wash, rinse and repeat. I am able to go on Facebook because it is quick, but I haven't been reading any posts....I know bad blogger. I will do better, I think I can promise that. #fingerscrossed

• I have a date for my next surgery. As I mentioned before I am undergoing breast reconstruction so this is the next to the last one. They will put in the silicone implants. So I will have a new pair of bobbies. Yay!! The date is August 18th and it will be outpatient surgery. I won't have to stay in the hospital and will be off of work for a week (with drain tubes....ugggh!!). I scheduled it in between Summer classes and Fall classes. After recouperating I will head right into Fall classes....yeah I know...

• I have to get back to basics with this weight thing. I have a not so new revelation. School is stressful and I am a stress/emotional eater. No duh!! The point is I HAVE TO STOP THAT!!! Dang it when I'm working on papers late at night my stomach just gets to growling and carrot sticks just ain't (yep I said it) on my radar. I have got to do better. So today, I am going back to writing EVERYTHING down that I eat, and following a 1200-1500 calorie eating plan. Notice how I didn't say the "d" word.

• School is going great!! My hard work is definitely paying off even if it is showing on my waistline. I have so far an A average in my classes. I got an A in my 1st Summer session class that ended on the 1st of July and I have two more to go this term.

With that I hope everyone that follows me is doing well. I may try to read and comment a little, but forgive me if I don't get to everyone.


The Skinny on my new BOOBIES

Hey Everybody!!

First off thanks so much for all the cool and wonderful comments on my last post! I love a forum that supports all my madness ;-)

I'm in between studying (Summer classes started this past Tuesday) and thought because a few have asked, I would "try" to make a short post about my upcoming Breast Reconstruction Surgery.

Most of you may know that I am a breast cancer survivor. Back in May of 2009 I was diagnosed with a very rare form of breast cancer in stage II (only 0.05% of the women in the country have this kind). By my oncologist not knowing how to treat it, I underwent 3 months of chemotherapy, a bilateral mastectomy and radiation. In November of 2009 after having my breast removed, my ecstatic doctors informed me that the cancer was gone. I had to undergo radiation, but after that I would go through 3 more surgeries to get new breast. This will be my second surgery in where the doctors will put in silicone implants. I used to wear 50EE or 50F (they were probably Gs or Hs) bras so the option to downsize was an EASSSSSSSYYYY one!!

My next surgery is scheduled for some time in August. I'm opting for the 3rd week which will be the week of the 15th. This is excellent timing for me as I will be in between Summer semester classes (end August 8th) and my Fall classes (which start August 29th). My plastic surgeon says I will only need a week to recuperate as opposed to the 8 weeks I needed when I had the mastectomy and the 3 weeks for the breast extenders (plastic and metal skin stretchers). The last surgery will probably be either around Thanksgiving or during my Christmas break to attach new nipples. I know you are thinking "WTH!!!!", but yeah, when they removed my breast they took everything. I won't have any sensation in my nipples, but hey I will have the appearance of some ;-).

All and all I am one happy camper. I have learned that life is so fleeting and that happiness is where you make it. The cancer is one of the primary reasons I decided to get the band. Because the cancer I had was not related to estrogen, I had to be proactive about my health. When the media and health officials tell you that being obese can cause cancer or be linked somehow to it, BELIEVE THEM!! Now me being obese didn't cause it (it is genetic), but staying that way would actually feed the cancer cells and make it worse. I want to live, so although previously against WLS, I soon got on board when my life was brought into question.

Anyway, this post turned out longer than I wanted it to, (I didn't want to bore you) but I wanted to let you in on what is going on with me. Ok, off to have my employment evaluation (which will not result in a raise...the state doesn't give those) and finish working on my project for my class. I will try to do some more commenting on the blogs in between that.

Have a great weekend!!!!!!!!

Musings in bullet form

Because I write this blog mainly for me (at least that's what I tell myself - see below) here goes another ramble/question in bullet form. I'll try to make it short.

• Do you ever wonder what it is you are doing wrong with regard to diet/weight loss? I know the answer, but hey I just had to ask. I know that people lose weight differently and at different speeds, but dang I so want to be at goal right now. If I didn't have that last cookie, maybe just maybe...

•Head Hunger is a biiiiiiioootttttchhhh!!! That's what I have been dealing with when it comes to those cookies ^^^. I wish somebody would tell me how to get over that hurdle.

• I'm back on Atkin's after diverting for a week or two. I picked up 5+ lbeees and wasn't at all happy. I have to be close to goal by August because I don't want my stomach being bigger than the new boobs I'm getting.

• Which brings me to this point. I think I'm more determined just because of the aforementioned statement.

• Have you ever wondered why when you send a friend request on a certain social networking site to a person, they don't accept, even though you thought you were cool elsewhere. #justasking

• I read a post the other day and the person said (paraphrasing) "it's not like anyone will comment anyway." I felt bad for this person, not just because they felt this way, but because I have sometimes felt this way before too. And if you admit it, you have too. We (some of us) often say that this blogging thing is "more for us" something like a journal, but if we are truthful we will admit that when we type a post that we think is prophetic, prolific or just down-right funny we would like at least one person to comment.

• What keeps me plugging along with this thing.....success stories (in no certain order) like Tessie Rose, Amy W., Stephanie, Catherine55, Grace, Lap Band Gal and the list goes on.

• This post in no way indicates that I am down on myself or in some self pity mode. On the contrary, I am quite happy today (and most days). These are just random ramblings I had in my head.