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Tomorrow is the day!!!!!

WOW!! Ok first off let me let you know there will be no structure to this post whatsoever. I am excited and have work to do in this office. How dare they expect me to come to work and WORK!!! ☺ Since I'm going to ramble I will try to put them in bullets so you can follow. As they appear here is exactly how they popped in my head.
*WARNING: This post does contain rants about poop! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!!*

•I dropped my son off in Nashville to start band camp and in 3 weeks college. I miss him already. I didn't go into his bedroom at home for fear of crying. On that note, I was there all day and when it was time for me to leave, I just hugged him, gave him a kiss and told him to be good (like he was being dropped off in daycare or something). He looked into my eyes and I saw all the love I have cultivated for 18 years. I will see him in a few weeks when he comes back home to play in the Southern Heritage Classic.

•I started my clear liquid diet this morning and have to drink Magnesium Citrate. A laxative and I'm at work!!! OMGEEEEEEEEEE for realz!!!!!! I went to Fred's and picked up a 10 oz. bottle for a dollar in the only flavor they had "Sparkling Lemon." Yea..... I know some of you are going to say "well why don't you drink it when you get home??" The short answer to that is that I have to drink it between 1 and 2 p.m. They want my system clear and not pooping on them by the time I come in. So lets do the math here. LIQUID DIET + LAXATIVE = LIQUID POOP AND A LOT OF IT!!

•Which leads me to my next rant.....I have to be at the hospital at 5:30 a.m.!!! Actually I'm good with that so that I won't have to be there all day. I have had surgeries where I had to be at the hospital at 1 p.m. WTH!! My surgery is supposed to start at 7:30. From what I'm told that may or may not be the case. It's like a little cattle call......That's sad. Ok....

•I will be off work for the rest of the week and will not have internet access except through my cell phone. Not a lot of wiggle room with that small screen, so I will fill you guys in when I get back to work on Monday and play catch up with all you guys goings on.

•I can already tell I'm going to get sick of broth. I had beef broth this morning and after the first 2 or 3 swallows I was like ACK!!!

•I'm determined to see this through. Part of me wonders though is it to show my best friend (the one thats banded) that the band can actually work and that she is wrong. IDK. I know my primary reason is of course my health, but also to show my friend that she has to work the band. We had a discussion last week where I think she actually was trying to talk me out of this. I'm a strong head so she knew it wouldn't work, but she made slippery comments anyway like "You can do it on your own" and "It is really no difference." She said "it doesn't take away your cravings." Well duh!!! I told her this is a "lap band" it goes around your stomach, not your brain. If you were an emotional eater before the band will not make you stop medicating yourself with food because you just broke up with your no good baby daddy for the umpteenth time. Nor will it solve any other emotional issues. Those are your's and your's along to fix.

•While we are on it. Sometimes I wonder about my BFFs (I have two and they are sisters). One is banded the other isn't. They are both very competitive and not in a good way. They do it in a way that says "nah, I beat you and am better." I was over to their house last week and the sister that isn't banded asked me how much I weighed. Of course because I'm an open book 90% of the time I told her. She waited a while and in the middle of the conversation said something like "I wasn't going to tell you, but when you told me how much you weighed I was thinking I'm not going to let her beat me (in losing weight)." WTH!!! As much as I have been through you are worried about competing against me. The one who HAS to lose weight or die. COMMMMMMMEEEONNNNNNNN!! I didn't mention this to my mom (who is VERY supportive, btw), because my family is already a little perturbed with my BFFs for not coming to the hospital at all when I had my double mastectomy. One hates hospitals and the other was tired from work. I didn't know until this past week that my family had discussed this without me. They feel that people you have been loyal to for 17 years should have been supportive of you regardless. I agree and have since let it go. They apologized and I accepted. But sometimes I wonder.....

•I do have another good friend who was banded Oct '09 and has been VERY successful. Her story is similar to mind with a few exceptions. Her mother died of cancer some years ago and her brother has cancer now. She just made a decision that she wanted to live and see her beautiful babies grow up. I don't blame her. She is the reason I made the decision to get banded.

Anyway those are my ramblings for today. I have more, but this post would be exceptionally long and I don't want to bore ya. By the time I talk with you guys again I will be in band land. See you on the other side!!

27 comments:

Mary said...

Girl that is so awesome! We will banded the same week!!! Mine is Thursday!!! We will be banded sisters!!!!!!! Fun! Yeah!!! So glad someone is having it the same week as me!!!! Did you have to do a pre-op diet also? I started mine last wed. I am on full liquids until wed, then clear liquids till surgery and a couple days after!!! Praying for YOU!!!!

Sandy Lee said...

I am so excited for you. You will rock the band because you have your mind in the right place. Funny about the BFF. My BFF is exactly the same-she's lost 60 pounds because she didn't want to be bigger than me-BUT she is super supportive and helps me out. It isn't a negative thing, just something she has to do to take off the weight.

Let us know you are ok as soon as you can. You should prepare a short post and keep it in draft. Could you publish it from your phone? Then we can flood you with comments! Good luck.

Ronke143 said...

WOOOT WOOOT!!!!! Good luck Pam!!!!

Bianca J said...

Good luck and looking forward to hearing from you on the banded side!

Alison said...

Good luck, looking forward to hearing all about it!

Stephanie said...

You will be wonderful tomorrow!! I know you will make it through with flying colors. Don't get me wrong, some days will suck mroe than others the first month, but honey, if I can lose 50 something lbs and keep it off, it DOES work. You just have to have faith in yourself!! I can't wait to keep reading :)

Pamela E. Williams said...

Thanks ladies for everything!!

Yay Mary!! We will be band sisters!! But to answer your question. No pre-op diet was ordered by the doc, but I decided to do my own version of one for the week before. Today I am doing what the doctor ordered which 1 day before surgery...clear liquid diet. Can I just say for the record that magnesium citrate is the devil for real. This mess taste like salty sprite for real.

Praying for you Mary!!!

Mary said...

Thanks girl!!!!!Can't wait to hear how your surgery goes! I know it will be PERFECT!!!!

Linda said...

Good luck Pamela!!! You'll do great, you know what you need to do to be successful with the band and you have all of us.

Cindylew said...

Good luck my little cupcake Pammie...I will have you on my mind all day tomorrow. I know you will be a success with this band...I just get that sense from you...and I'm never...okay, seldom...ok, not usually wrong.
Love ya.

Drazil said...

Oh dollface...I'm so happy for you...for realz. Your spirit is beautiful - I can tell - and you deserve this in so many ways. I hope it is painless and you heal fast and come back to blogging cuz I'm gonna miss your face and your awesome comments you leave me. Take care of you mmkkaayy? I'll be with you the whole time in spirit.

AmeyinIdaho said...

Good Luck and I'll say a prayer for you for a speedy surgery with no complications. I can't wait to hear that you are home and doing great!

Welcome to Band Land!!

Bonnie said...

You are going to do great with the band. I can tell. I don't even know what to say about your BFFs not coming to the hospital. Sending good vibes your way for an easy surgery and a quick recovery.

Amaris said...

Hope your surgery and recovery are as easy as mine has been. Banded last Tuesday, and I'm doing great. You will too! Do let us know that you are okay, even if you don't have a chance to post details. We'll worry about you!

Amy W. said...

I cant believe that today is the day! I am ready to welcome you to bandland with open arms! You have been so amazing with your words and support that I hope that I can offer you the same! I cant wait to follow you and be with you on this journey!

Much love is coming your way!

kagead said...

No idea why I wasn't following you but thanks to Stephanie's post, I am now!!

Congrats and welcome to bandland! I know you will rock it and I can't wait to follow you on your journey. :)

Cheeseburger Girl said...

Welcome to Bandyland!
You'll be feeling 100% in no time, I promise.

DiZneDiVa said...

Get thin soon! I would have said well, but you are already well... You will be back to your new normal soon. Congrats! and welcome to the Sisterhood! *Maria*-Blogger from "This one time at BAND Camp..." Check out my blog at mybigfatbandgeeklife.blogspot.com

Heather said...

I am so glad to hear that surgery went well. Welcome to the other side! We are glad to have you.

Sumer said...

Can't wait to hear how it went! YAY! BANDLAND!!!!!

tessierose said...

Pam, I can't wait to hear how things went, I know you are going to be a great success! Sending healing vibes!

Gwen said...

Just read via Stephanie that you are doing well!

So stoked for you!!

Take it easy :)

Pie said...

So excited for you!!!!! Can't wait to hear how it went! Hope you're not in too much pain and remember: WALK WALK WALK!! You're in our thoughts!

Michelle said...

Yay! Good luck! You'll do just fine and remember every new day you will start to feel better and better. *hugs*

Band Groupie said...

YAY BANDER!!! CONGRATULATIONS GF!! Sip, sip, sip and walk, walk, walk! Feel better soon...I'm SO happy for you Sweetness!

So sorry about the BFF's...one of my sister's is like that too...don't worry, you've got the right attitude and you're doing this for all the right reasons...that's why you're going to be successful with it.

Ahh college...I cried like a baby when we dropped the first one off...and again with the second. Get a webcam if you don't have one...it helps to 'see' that they're OK.

((hugs)) and can't wait to hear how everything went! Oh, and I did the award thing today. OH, OH, and check out my 'chocolate' fake tan on yesterday's blog LOL. Thanks again sweetie!

V said...

thinking of you...hope you're doing well! :)

Joey said...

Just checking on you to see how you are feeling. Hope all is well and you are getting lots of rest!